Travel my mind · 03. März 2021

Zum ersten Mal in meinem Leben war ich heute den erniedrigenden Verbalangriffen einer stolzen Nationalsozialistin ausgesetzt. Die beleidigende und entmenschlichende Spuckansprache dieser Dame hat mich aufs Tiefste erschüttert. Der Kommunikationsaustausch wurde durch eine liebevolle Geste meiner mit mir auf der Parkbank die Sonne genießend sitzenden Mutter ausgelöst, als diese den Hund der Dame, die ca. 1,5 m neben uns Platz genommen hatte, zu streicheln begann. Ich zitiere: „Sie tragen...

Travel my mind · 13. Mai 2020

A rainbow – I am. Manifold and colorful Staining your pure gown Tarnishing the reputation of a gown, an entire wardrobe Didn’t you shine in bright colors yourself? Drawing boundless patterns of flourishing diversity A rainbow – You had been. One ever feels her twoness? Split flesh – I am. Captivating. Paradoxical I belong to you I see you shine, prideful upon receiving compliments – For the rainbow - Not the split flesh Agony of denials. I understand you But I grow pale – You...

Travel my mind · 23. März 2020

Staring out of the window, clouds passing by, heaven looks like an endless sea of fluffy cotton candy. Aside from the sudden desire for sugary aliments, I sense another feeling inside my guts; it’s that feeling you get when you’re about to start a completely new chapter in your life. You’ve finally managed to turn over the page. As soon as the plane will land, you’ll be the author of a story written entirely about and for yourself. In my case, not only have I turned over the page...

Corona Diary · 21. März 2020

Wonderful day, amici. Today I’m opting for a little nostalgia. Scrolling through my gallery, I’m reminiscing about brighter times. So many happy faces. It’s wonderful. You can tell the evolution of this shitty pandemic scrolling through my phone. Starting mid-February, the accumulation of memes, videos and screenshots of Instagram-posts ridiculing corona (at the very beginning at least) skyrockets up to this very moment, only now there is no further “playing corona down” going on any...

Corona Diary · 20. März 2020

I woke up thinking about the people I would have liked to hug and kiss so badly. I thought to myself: “Damn, I should have just hugged all of these people I refrained from hugging due to my tiny inner introvert that sometimes pops up. I should have just bitten all the cute little cheeks of people I love so much I want to eat them.” This may indeed sound somewhat cannibalistic. Trust me, it’s not, it’s the tremendous flood of love overwhelming me in a way Noah must have been overwhelmed...

Corona Diary · 19. März 2020

Good Morning world. Today is the day I have to leave the house in this idyllic setting of mine. I need to drive to Schweinfurt, the next bigger city around here. My mom has an appointment at the hospital and I will seize this opportunity to go grocery shopping and check on the current toilet-paper misery myself. I did indeed miss driving. Anyhow, arriving in the city, I dropped of my mom. Everywhere around the hospital, one could see signs asking people to stay away from each other at a...

Corona Diary · 18. März 2020

Welcome back to village-life. The sun is shining, it’s quite warm outside, so why not use this occasion to work on my long-lost fitness. It’s about time. I put on my leggings and started running, trying to breathe in a calming rhythm like my dad once taught me to avoid having a stitch. It went quite fine actually. I did some intervals, working out within a scale of walking quite slowly to running like a crazy shot deer. My tactics when jogging are the following: I try to imagine being on...

Corona Diary · 17. März 2020

After yesterday’s call, I think I’m set. I have already started packing my suitcase yesterday night. I put on some music. I was listening to Ghali – an Italo-Tunisian artist that I love. There is this song that I kept listening to on repeat “Good Times”. The first line is “Sembra la fine del mondo, ma mi calma” – Seems like the end of the world, but I will calm down. Well, how appropriate. I’m very proud of myself. I had packed a fair deal of my stuff yesterday and most...

Corona Diary · 16. März 2020

“Good morning sunshine! Yallah, dress up, shoes on. Let’s go out, explore and flourish some more!” That’s what my usual inner voice sounds like every morning rejoicing about the fact that it’s another wonderful day for me to be waking up in my favorite city. For the past few days, I just woke up thinking: What the fuck is going on; someone take me back to reality. Cause this shit can’t be it… Italy is shut down. France is following up. Germany similarly. Last flights in and out of...

Corona Diary · 15. März 2020

“Have you heard some of the people are leaving the country due to this crisis… I heard the U.S. called back their citizens. My friend got on the last flight out of Istanbul this morning. She said the government was willing to pay for any American citizen willing to leave wherever they may be located abroad, if only they left today.” Isn’t that pure madness? I recall smiling and telling myself that I would not actually consider going back to Germany… I mean, firstly, the epicenter of...